I do… but not that guy…

3 years ago I landed on the rocky shores of Helsinki to get married to a guy I loved. Now, many quarrels, lies and some fights later I’m probably still going to marry a guy, just not that one.

He’s not my cross to carry, have probably never been. 3 years I spent with the guy make no sense at all. He brought destruction to my family and jitter to my self-esteem. With all the qualities, skills and heart of mine I should have gotten away from this long time ago, but I let him blur my vision, and this only served his self-indulging agenda.

For those of you who have followed my stories can see the difference between the first images of him and this late photo, as of arrogant, cold smirk on his face. As portrait photographer I always said

Don’t photograph what’s there, photograph what’s not there. Capture how you feel…

Roman Melihhov

What you do not see on this photo from 2020, compared to other, older portraits of this guy? Well, I don’t see love. The love is gone, just cold arrogance on his face. In the moments like this you realize, this is it, there’s nothing more to this moment. RUN!!! And I did, roughly a year later in 2021. I’ve closed this chapter of my life on the April 2, 2021 and I’m ready to start the next chapter or maybe a whole book.

Is there anyone who is willing to give it a try and write this story together? Please comment or make a donation to keep this blog on and on.